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A Slightly Awkward Experience…

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. Since I’ve got my favourites and monthly look ahead for this month done – I KNOW it took forever – it’s finally time for some posts where we can just talk and get to know each other a little bit better! 😀

In today’s post, I thought it’d be interesting to talk about something that happened almost two weeks ago, well, two weeks ago – tomorrow. Not last Friday, the Friday before? That makes sense, right? Anyways, it’s something that I have barely spoken about since, but it’s been something I’ve thought about a good bit.

Let’s go back to that Friday together.

As I walked into the English classroom, I saw that the title was ‘Gothic’. Knowing me, I probably let out a bit of a grunt; Gothic Literature has never been a favourite of mine. Frankly, I find it quite boring. Not to mention out of my comfort zone of writing in.

Around ten minutes later, the teacher announced that we’d be watching some video clips. It was exactly then that my stomach dropped. I turned around to Rachel and probably said something along the lines of “Rachel, I can’t do it!”. And she probably responded with something along the lines of “It’s okay, you’ll be okay, it won’t be that.”

A couple of minutes further on into the lesson, our teacher announced that the video clips would in fact be film trailers. Turning around to Rachel again (she sits behind me), my heart was pounding and I could barely breathe. Sweat was gathering in my palms, and I could feel it across my face. My fingers were shaking like leaves in the wind. I told myself that if my brain was right, I’d have to sit through it, look down, and get on with the work, because leaving the classroom is hardly appropriate – not to mention the amount of harassment I’d get from the other people in the class.

And then came the time for my English teacher to announce the film trailer. By this point, I was looking up to the ceiling to hold back any tears, and my knees had started to tremble in sync with my hands. I felt almost like I did last October, so I knew I had to be ready for if a panic attack hit.

“The first trailer is from a film that a lot of you will have seen. It’s quite typical of the Gothic genre. The Woman in -”

I raised my hand quicker than I think I ever had done before. “Can I go outside?” My voice was trembling now too, and I had zero time to think about what I was doing – I just did it. “I have -” At that point, I stopped myself from saying the word ‘phobia’ because people would probably take the mick. “I really don’t like this film…” My voice cracked slightly and trailed off. He looked puzzled for a moment, and then smiled awkwardly and said I could.

Bare in mind, that my seat is directly at the front of the classroom, back to back (or front to back?) with his desk, so he could probably see the terror and panic etched into my face. It also meant that I had to turn around and walk right to the door, in front of the whole class. At that point in time, though, I didn’t give a damn – I just had to get out.

Throughout the trailer, I stood outside the classroom, shaking intensely, verging on panic. I  could feel my face burning up and tears forming in my eyes. Again, I looked up to the ceiling, but it didn’t help that I could still hear the soundtrack from the overly-loud speakers. Judge me all you like, but to try to get my nerves under control, I imagined a certain celebrity winking… I guess it sort of worked, because I didn’t get to the point where I cried or anything… But the nerves were still there.

At the end, Rachel came out to get me, and a couple of people asked why I left. When I told them about the whole phobia sort of thing I have over it, everything was okay. They didn’t care. Better yet, they understood. I had all of those nerves about anyone seeing how scared and anxious I was, all for no reason.

I guess you could say that makes me happy, to know that as bitchy, judgemental and annoying as some of the people in my year can be, none of them took the mick or judged me for it. I’m glad that at the end of the day, they’re accepting and do care about people’s feelings.

Basically, I’d say that if you’re scared of what people will think about you, just go for it, and forget about them. People can surprise you!

Thank you SO much for reading! Make sure to like and follow if you like my blog, and leave any thoughts or suggestions in the comments!

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me

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MONTHLY LOOK-AHEAD: MAY

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. After running a poll on twitter, the grand total of my votes flooded like waterfalls into my twitter account and decided that over half way into the month is not too late to write my monthly look-ahead. Just in case you were wondering, the extremely giant total was 2 votes if I’m not mistaken… I’ll check. Yup – 2 votes.

Better late than never? I feel like that should be my blog’s slogan or something 😀

Anyways, let’s get on with the post, shall we?

Results

As a lot of you will know, I had a ‘practice GCSE exam’ week a couple weeks ago. Since then, I’ve only had Maths (or Math if you’re American) and English results back… I’m veeerry happy with those, and I can only hope that my other exams went just as well. Although, Spanish is probably going to be laughable. Let’s just say it did not go smoothly. Luckily, I haven’t chosen Spanish as a GCSE, though.

Once Upon a Time Season Finale

I will admit, this isn’t much of a look-ahead, because I did actually watch it earlier on today… Nevertheless, it was AMAZING AND I CAN’T DEAL WITH IT AT ALL. Frankly, I am not looking forward to the several month wait until September ish when season 6 starts…. :/

Finding some new bloggers!

Since I’m back from my little hiatus, I thought it would be a good idea to freshen up my reader, and follow a few new blogs. I have already started to do so, but I’d love it if you could leave a link to any of your blogs, or any other interesting blogs you might know of!

New Music

Along the lines of the last one, I’ve been on a few musical adventures with my Spotify. A new favourite of mine is Reggie and Bollie’s new single: New Girl. It’s sooooo catchy, and I’ve been singing it since last Friday. If you liked Cheerleader, by OMI, then you’ll probably like this because it has a similar summery vibe to it! Kind of gets me excited for summer!

Getting some use out of my sunglasses

As I mentioned in my last post, I bought some black jeans from Primark (which I am actually wearing right now). On my little shopping quest, I also picked up some sunglasses, because my eyes are hopeless in the light, and if I didn’t, I’d probably have terrible crow lines by 20 years old, which obviously, is not ideal. Hopefully, the sun will be out a little more, and I’ll be a bit less of a recluse and get out of the house and use them. In case you were wondering, they’re tinted brown/red, have nude frames and ‘handles’ and the metal is gold (obviously not real gold; this is Primark we’re talking about!). They were only £2 which is a baaarrgaaaain if I do say so myself! 🙂

Meeting up with Bob?

If you’re relatively new to my blog, you probably don’t know who Bob is. Basically, he’s my best friend, I’m convinced he’s my soul-brother, but we go to different schools so I don’t see him too much. It doesn’t help that we’re both really awkward and avoid outside, social situations, too. I’m not actually sure, but I’m guessing the school half-term is nearing? If our school holiday timetables line up, I’ll try and get a time where we can crash Costa for a bit. 😀

And that’s everything I can think of at the moment! What are you looking forward to this month?

Thank you SO much for reading! Make sure to like and follow if you like my blog and leave any thoughts or suggestions in the comments!

Just Average Teen Me

P.S. I’m about to go write some Gothic Poetry for English which could either be amazing, or catastrophic

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APRIL FAVOURITES

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. After several weeks of not posting, I am finally back! For those of you who don’t follow my blogging twitter, I have been abducted by the world of aliens. If revision counts as aliens, that is. Hang on, I’m just going to check how long it’s been.  *** 25th April. So, about 2 and a half weeks. It feels like so much longer! Let’s just say, I’ve missed your faces, well not your faces because this is a website but hey! I’ve missed blogging, and it’s nice to be back!

Let’s get on with the actual post then, shall we?

Ally Carter – I’d tell you I love you, but then I’d have to kill you

Oh it’s my favourites, by the way.

As insane as that may sound to any of you who haven’t read this book, it’s actually extremely entertaining, and relatable for that matter. As I do with a lot of books, I’ll type up the blurb.

“Gallagher Academy isn’t a school for geniuses, it’s a school for spies…

Cammie Morgan might be capable of killing a man in seven different ways, but she’s about to begin her most dangerous mission yet: falling in love”

And now you probably understand that it isn’t as violent as it seems. If I’m not mistaken, there are 5 other books in the Gallagher Girls/Ally Carter series. I’ll definitely be trying to get my hands on a few of the others when I can! As well as Infinity Rises, which I am DESPERATE to read!

Black Jeans – Primark

As I said in my April look ahead, I planned on buying some black jeans, and that’s exactly what I did. Just a couple days later. Unfortunately, I couldn’t see any high waisted ones, which if you know me, are my equivalent of heaven. Normal jeans are fine too though. So, they’re black, have a little button at the top, and belt hooks, which is always a good thing. Obviously, they’re skinny ones, too. In case you’re wondering, I bought them in UK size 6 long, which actually is a little too long, but I quite like having them thick/ruffled/bunched at the bottom. And if I ever feel like it, which I’m sure I will at some point, I could always roll up the cuffs. 😀

Starbucks

As a huge hot chocolate fanatic, it’s only reasonable that I am always in utter love with the coffee scented haven that is Starbucks. In April, I went twice, one time I got a hazelnut hot chocolate, which was incredibly delicious (and also 600 calories – no regrets) and then the other time, I opted for my usual – Hot chocolate with cinnamon.

Easter Eggs

Fun fact: I like to make my chocolate last as ridiculously long as I can. But who doesn’t? I had my Easter eggs for about a week, which meant that they lasted into April, so they count, right? Who doesn’t love chocolate? It deserves to be in here 😀

Chocolate in general

I know, it has now been about 2 months since my birthday, but in April, I finished my birthday chocolates. I’m not actually sure if I’ve told you the excessive amount that I ate but I think now’s a good time anyway.

  • 6 jam tarts from my Grandma (I know, not chocolate)
  • A box of Viennese Chocolate Fox biscuits
  • A box of Lindt Lindors (my absolute most favourite chocolate EEEVVAAAAARRRRRRR)
  • 8 single Hot Fudge Sundae Pop Tarts
  • A pack of double stuff Oreos
  • A big dairy milk bar
  • A rather large box of dark chocolates (double layers! 😉 )
  • An Easter bunny
  • The rest of my Easter eggs

Honestly, I’m impressed my body even managed to keep itself functioning and alive after all of that 😀

A Certain Somebody

I know, I’m anonymous on here, but I’m still  not comfortable with letting you in on this massive secret, just in case any of my friends secretly stalk my blog… Basically, for the last few months, I’ve been head-over-heels in love with this ‘celebrity’. Within my friendship group, we call him * insert celebrity’s name here *. Ashley’s pretty sure she knows who it is, but I’m hoping she’s wrong. There’s something about having a secret that nobody knows that just makes me so happy, you know? That you’re the only one in the world who knows!

Kelsea Ballerini

On the topic of music, I’ve been loving Kelsea Ballerini (a new discovery of mine)! She has a song for pretty much every mood you can possibly be in. My personal favourite is Yeah Boy, which I may or may not completely relate to. Stilettos is also a very relatable and empowering one. And Xo is perfect to bounce around your room like a superstar to. Make sure to check her out!

OUAT

Need I say any more? I’m just repeating myself 😀

Spotify

A recent download of mine, which has definitely taken over my life, is Spotify! It’s actually how I found some of the new music I’ve been listening to lately (Kelsea, Lawson and revisited old McFly)

That’s everything I can think of, and this post is getting pretty long!

OH! IMPORTANT QUESTION!

Do you think I should do a May look-ahead, since we’re already almost half way through May anyways?

Thank you SO much for reading! Make sure to like and follow if you like my blog and leave any thoughts or suggestions in the comments!

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me