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A Crazy Week

It is I: Awkwardsaurs.

This week has been fantastic, I’ll have you know. It’s zipped by within what feels like just a day, and I’ve really proven to myself that I am in control.

Monday started off a little blue, as all Mondays do, but especially blue since exam week was over. Why was I missing exams, you might ask? Well, since I have no lessons with Flynn, the exams were the only time I ever saw him except passing by in corridors, and it just so happened that I had a good bit of free time in my exams and used that to my advantage. 😉

HOWEVER, that Monday was about to take a turn. So. So. Fast.

As I arrived to my form room (a science lab, if you’re interested), I realised Flynn was stood outside. I assumed he was chatting to some of his friends that were in my form. 

Our form teacher let us in, and Flynn followed us all. I guessed he was being silly and just deciding to walk into the wrong class on purpose. But he didn’t leave. And sir told him to sit down. At this point, I was pretty damn confused, not to mention terrified. So I made sure to listen especially carefully to the register. Sure enough, his name was called out – which meant he was in my form. 

I ended up concentrating too hard on the fact that he was literally sat right behind me and accidentally said a strange mess of “Yes Miss-Sir” when my name was called out… Classic Awkwardsaurus. 

At this point, Ashley was laughing at me (in a friendly way, of course), since she knows fully well about Flynn. I’d convinced myself I was dreaming. Things like that just don’t happen.

First lesson, maths, rolled around, and I was bursting with excitement to tell Britt. I walked in, and saw her sat at her desk, tapped the table and said “you won’t believe this”. Of course, that caught her attention and she was begging to know. “Guess who’s in my form?” was how I finally told her. She lost it. Literally. But for the entire lesson we were barely concentrated on the maths. How could we?

It was about Lunch time, when I realised that it really mustn’t be a dream, since i hadn’t woken up yet, and the news had spread to my closest girl-friends. 

Britt, Penny and I were planning ways I could talk to him that night over WhatsApp, and Tuesday finally rolled around. But he was doing a job for our form teacher, so I couldn’t talk. 

Wednesday was the first shot I had. I was way too nervous and jittery.

Thursday – I almost did, but got too scared. That day (yesterday) was mainly me being annoyed at myself for not doing it.

But then.

Friday – After scrolling through so many quotes on tumblr about stepping out of your comfort zone and listening to Fifth Harmony, I somehow plucked up the courage to say something. After the register was finished, I was practically chanting “do it” in my head, until turning around and asking “What’ve we got first?” I knew exactly what I had first (chemistry), and what he had first for that matter (geography) but it was the easiest way to make conversation I could think of. Although he only replied with “I don’t know” and I left the conversation there before I exploded, I’m so insanely proud of myself.

In case you hadn’t caught on, that was the first time I’ve spoken to him, and if you aren’t sure who Flynn is, let me enlighten you. 

He’s a popular guy in my year, and easily the best looking guy in the school in my opinion. My friends have known about him since early October, so it’s took me quite a while to finally speak to him.

Moral of the story: stepping out of your comfort zone can be SO WORTH IT, even if it doesn’t get you that far. You’ll be proud of yourself, too.

Here’s one of the quotes that I downloaded:


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44 Thoughts in an Exam

Hi guys. I’m Awkwardsaurus 🙂

    As I’ve already mentioned, a few weeks ago, I had exam week, which, if you’re unaware, is a week of pretend GCSE exams, carried out exactly how the real ones would be. Like a fire drill, but for exams. 

    Not fun. 

    But exams mean there’s a lot of mind wandering (whether that’s a good thing or bad) and I thought it’d be fun to share some of them!

    1. Here we go, into the valley of death 
    2. Do I trust having my phone in my bag inside these cages? No. Will I still do it? Yes. 
    4. Don’t sit in the wrong seat, don’t sit in the wrong seat
    5. If anyone is sat in my seat they shall prepare for my wrath
    6. That teacher literally walks like a penguin 
    7. Oh phew, found my seat
    8. Dammit it’s a wobbly desk. DID I ASK FOR THIS GOD?
    9. So… Is it cheating if I write my name on this yet?
    10. Wait what even is my name
    11. Or my candidate number
    12. *Thanks the heavens that Flynn is in my eyeline* (he was for all exams except 2)
    14. Damn right hear my swish that paper you peasants 
    15. What would happen if I climbed on top of the table and did a little dance
    16. Is she staring at my bae
    17. Hell no she’s staring at my bae
    18. OH CRAP NOW SHE SAW ME (legitimate anecdote)
    19. *manages to actually figure out something in maths* holy guacamole I’m a genius bow down to me
    20. Wait it’s wrong nevermind. Still bow though
    21. Why am I struggling on the first question seriously why is English language so hard I NEED ANSWERS
    22. Not gonna use that word purely because I don’t know how to spell it
    24. *Stares at crush*
    25. “Miss, I have no clue how big a micrometer is :(” – a literal note I wrote to my biology teacher 
    26. What the hell is a statin
    28. Must. Write. Faster.
    29. Wait what’s 4 × 7
    30. Right 28, got it
    31. Or is it 32… No it’s 28?
    32. What if we all shook the desks and stomped our feet shouting EARTHQUAKE
    33. *FIRE ALARM*
    34. Are y’all just gonna let me burn to death or??
    35. Okay apparently there isn’t a fire but we aren’t allowed to leave…. Great
    36. *Becomes freaking ninja at twiddling pens from finger to finger*
    37. I wonder what everyone else is thinking in here…
    38. How many crushes are in this room at once…
    39. Hah I’m giving up BYE EXAM
    40. I feel like Britney Spears staring at the clock in Hit Me Baby One More Time
    41. WHEW WE’RE DONE.
    42. Why am I always the last one out?
    43. Okay which cage is my bag in…?
    44. *Pulls out bag, bringing about 5 others down too*

        So, that’s all! Good luck to anyone with exams coming up! 😀


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        15 Lessons in 15 Years


        March 9th has rolled around once again, and I’ve officially been fifteen since 6:29am this morning. 

        Do I feel different, you might ask? Refreshed? Old? Suddenly enlightened with wisdom?

        Hah, no. 

        But I thought to commemorate the occasion, I would share a few of the things I have learned since being fired outta the womb. 🙂

        1. Selective close friends is better than a bunch of distant friends

        2. You’re beautiful, and nobody can ever take that away from you

        3. Trusting people is great, but be careful who you share your secrets with

        4. Don’t leave revision until the last few days when there’s so many exams (just recently learned that one)

        5. Do something that scares you every now and then – you’ll be surprised where stepping out of your comfort zone gets you

        6. Go outside. See the world. Even if it’s just a park a few minutes away from home. Our world is the only place we’ll have, so you might as well appreciate it

        7. Do things because you enjoy them. Not because it’s what your friends have done, or because your parents say you should

        8. Socialising is fun. You just need the right people

        9.  But alone time is just as important. We need space to breathe, and get in touch with ourselves


        11. Just take care of yourself in general. Drink water, get enough sleep, eat well and all that jazz

        12. Ask people how they are, especially if they just asked you – manners are important!

        13. Crush hard. When else will you get the chance?

        14. Treat yourself every now and then. You deserve it!

        15. Nobody will get through life without ever feeling lonely at some point. You’re not alone, and there’s always someone you can talk to ❤

        And that’s some of the things I’ve learned in the decade and a half that I’ve been here! 😀


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        A Big Ol’ Favorites

        Hey there friends. Yes you guys are my friends. 

        I was thinking yesterday, and I realised that I haven’t done a favourites post in way too long. Im not sure how long exactly, but I don’t recall writing one for December.
        Since it’s now March, I have a pretty solid opinion on a bunch of Christmas gifts and new splurges so it’s the perfect time to share them! Not to mention, I do love writing these. 😀

        Imperial Leather – Mouthwatering Fruit Chew Shower Cream

        I know, that’s a mouthful of a name, and could be a mouthful of soap if you don’t read the packaging! Rachel bought me this for Christmas, and I’ve used it every shower since. It claims to revitalise skin, and leave you feeling refreshed and smelling great. It smells incredible and definitely makes my skin feel super smooth. 

        Ferrero Rocher

        I’m not sure if you can get your hands on these outside the UK, so I’ll give you a little description. They’re basically a roasted hazelnut, in a ball of gooey chocolate, with a hard chocolate coating and then more hazelnut pieces around the outside. If you’re anything like me and would gladly live off hazelnut chocolate for the rest of your life, you’d probably like them. 🙂


        If you read a recent post of mine, you’ll know that I have been introduced (by buzzfeed) to the blissful world of menstrual cups. I won’t ramble on too much, when you could just head on over here to read, but these are an absolute game changer. Mine’s Size B, which is for under 30 y/o who haven’t had any kiddos. 

        Infinity Rises and Infinity Reborn – S. Harisson

        You might remember that around a year ago, I read the first book in the Infinity trilogy. The entire plot captivated me from start to finish, and I was so excited to read the next two. Now that I finally have, I can safely say that they certainly lived up to my expectations, with the third one definitely exceeding! If you’re at all into sci-fi I really recommend checking them out! Even I’m not usually the biggest sci-fi fan but these are easily my favourite books!

        Mistik Fragrance Diffuser 

        This one’s a slight oddball one, but I thought it’d be nice to throw into the mix. I was in Aldi (British supermarket) with my mum a couple months ago, and stumbled across an ‘Apple and Cinnamon’ scented diffuser. I’d owned one diffuser (rose scented, if you’re interested) and really loved the whole idea, so I decided to buy it. Not to mention my undying love of anything cinnamon. It smells amazing, and has been lasting really well!


        With Christmas being just a few months ago, I got a new phone (thank the lord). That meant I could finally get Snapchat. Having used a pretty disfunctional phone for two years prior to then, Twitter was the only social media I really used. So, Snapchat was pretty confusing at first, but it’s quickly become one of my favourites. If you’re wondering, the black and white sunglasses is my favourite filter. 😉

        Teen Wolf Season 6

        Anyone that knows me well is very aware that I’m a huge fan of the MTV series Teen Wolf. Every season has such an intriguing plot, and this season has been no exception. The ghost riders are really elaborate characters and the storylines are EMOTIONAL (Stydia shippers, I feel you) and I’m really hoping the next half of the season will be just as amazing!

        Lacrosse Hoodie

        While we’re on the topic of Teen Wolf, I thought I’d mention one of my Christmas presents. It’s a lacrosse hoodie from Beacon High (the school on teen wolf) with Lahey 14 on the back. Isaac is easily my favourite character in all of the 6 seasons, and I really hope he comes back at some point soon! But anyway, it’s a size too big, which makes it quite baggy, and pleases my fangirl heart since I can imagine it’s Isaac’s hoodie. Yep, I’m depressing, but you probably would too 🙂


        As a Christmas gift, Britt got me a chocolate bar and a set of lip balms, because I’m always complaining about my dry lips. They’re made by nspa and it’s safe to say that they’ve quickly become a staple of mine! It came in three variations: Raspberry, Coconut, and my favourite, Shea Butter. They’re super moisturising and I haven’t complained about my lips nearly as much since I started using them! Definitely recommend!

        That’s all for now! I guess I’ll see you next time then 🙂


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        Monthly Look-Ahead: MARCH 2017


        It’s been way too long since I did a Look-Ahead post, and I really do love writing them, so since it’s the first day of March I thought I’d get back into it!

        Wow that was a pretty long sentence.


        There’s a good bit to look forward to this month, so let’s get right into it, shall we?

        Lenten Cake Stall

        As you may already know, today is the first day of Lent (the buildup to Easter). I go to a Catholic school, because my family are Catholic, so our school does a lot of fundraising for charities. One of those things happens to be a lot of cake stalls. Since Year 7 (first year of high school) I’ve been a faithful customer to the graphics teacher’s tuck shop. That makes this year the fourth year of buying dozens of blueberry muffins over Lent. I love blueberry muffins, so what’s not to be excited for?

        My Birthday

        Another year has rolled around, and my birthday is just over a week away. I’ll be 15 on March 9th, which is next Thursday. Thankfully, it’s the one day of the week that I don’t have English. Actually, I’d say it’s one of my favourite days, lesson-wise! And then a few days later it’s Ashley’s birthday!

        Mock Exams

        Sure I’m not too thrilled by the prospect of sitting in an exam hall for hours taking exams but it gets me out of some lessons, which could be a bonus? Plus, I guess you could say it’s my only time to have lessons with Flynn, since we’ll all be in the hall at the same time! 😉

        Passport Arrivals

        You might remember that I’m going to Italy in October as a Geography school trip to the Bay of Naples (Pompeii and all that jazz). After the third time of sending passport forms off, we finally got a text to say that it had been posted and was on the way back. The first time, they needed proof that my new photo was still me, and the second time, the signatures weren’t right. Quite the hassle, but now that we’re finally there I’m just quite excited to have a passport for the first time in 10 years.

        The Space Between Us

        On February 10th (not sure why I remembered the exact date, but it’d be nice if I could remember my French that well), The Space Between Us was released in the UK. It’s a romance film about a boy who moved to Earth from Mars to be with a girl. I’m a huge sucker for romance movies and I’m not sure why I haven’t gotten around to seeing it, but I plan on doing in the next month!

        Fixed Heating?

        Since Saturday, the boiler in my house has broken, so we have no radiator heat, no hot water, and I’m pretty dang cold. I’ve been sat under several blankets the majority of the time, since it’s currently the coldest it’s been in a few weeks here in the UK. Tomorrow, though, there’s someone coming to take a look at it to see if they can fix it. Fingers crossed!

        That’s everything (I think?) for March 2017!

        BYEEEE 😛


        P.S. Let me know some of your favourite romance films!