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Favourite Song Lyrics

Hellooo!

I’ve had ideas brewing for this post for a while (the introduction was for Just Average Teen Me) now, so I guess you could say the kettle is whistling and it’s time to write it! I’ll be sharing some of my favourite lyrics from songs that I listen to, if you hadn’t already guessed from the title.

Also, before we get into it, they’re not in any specific order.

I’m only up when you’re not down
Don’t wanna fly if you’re still on the ground

Only Me When I’m With You, Taylor Swift

If you’re a fan of Taylor’s more pop style music, chances are you might not have heard of this song. I’m pretty sure it was from her self titled album, Taylor Swift. Anyway, it’s super cute and I just had to include it in here.

Yeah boy, your eyes could make the moon jealous

Yeah Boy, Kelsea Ballerini

I have the exact moment I heard this lyric on a WhatsApp chat, actually. On April 6th, at 11:36am, I said “Okay that’s one of the cutest lyrics I’ve ever heard” and to this day, it still is ❤

Don’t need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo.

Starving, Hailee Steinfeld

Speaking of cute lyrics, this song has been one of my favourites since it was released. I’m a huge fan of Hailee and I’ve loved every one of her songs, especially this one! Nerves are obviously something everyone deals with when they have a lil crush so I’d guess you can relate to this! 😀

My body’s telling all the secrets I ain’t told you yet

Sledgehammer, Fifth Harmony

This one is definitely one of my favourites, because it’s so perfectly put together. It’s such a pretty way to say it, not to mention Sledgehammer will always be one of my favourite songs ❤

There’s always a seed
Before there’s a rose
The more that it rains
The more I will grow

Roots Before Branches, Glee Cast

Everyone needs a little lyric of encouragement every now and then, right? This one’s great if you’re going through a tough time, or if you feel like you aren’t getting anywhere.

‘Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen

Most Girls, Hailee Steinfeld

I could’ve quoted the entire song, but I ended up choosing this one. If you haven’t heard it, you should definitely listen to this one! It has a super empowering message throughout, and is definitely the kind of music we need more of 😀

I should be over all the butterflies but I’m into you

Still Into You, Paramore

As the romantic that I am, the idea of still feeling like you first did with someone you’ve been with for a while is near to perfect, so this had to be in here.

Watching you’s the only drug I need

-Hey Soul Sister, Train

I mentioned this song a couple of posts ago! It’s such a feel-good one, and I’ll never get sick of it. 🙂

What are some of your favourite lyrics? Or favourite songs at the moment?

See you next time

Awkwardsaurus 

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BLOLIDAYS #3 – SUMMER HAUL

Who doesn’t love a good shopping spree? Well, besides my purse, I think most people would agree that splurging is so therapeutic, even if it only moves my worries from school life and friendship dramas to the sudden drop in my savings. 😉

A couple of weeks ago, I had a rather daring day out and managed to fill a huge Primark bag with both Primark things, and a few bits and bobs from elsewhere (that’s a lie, it was a lot of bits and bobs…).I think we should get into it!

First stop: Primark!

Turquoise Summer Print Tie Top – £6.00 (UK Size 4)

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High-Waisted Blue Jeans – £9.00 (UK Size 6)

 

 

Cropped Purple Hoodie – £7.00 (UK Size 4)

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Button-up Denim Shirt – £8.00 (UK Size 4)

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California Print T-Shirt – £2.50 (UK Size 6)

Onto Boots!

Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer – £4.19 (Shade: Fair 1)

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Collection Speedy Highlighter – £3.99 (Pearl Sheen)

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Barry M Feature Length Mascara – £4.99

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Barry M Mist & Fix Setting Spray – £4.99 (Matte)

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Barry M Matte Me Up Lip Kit – £6.99 (Shade: Blowout)

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And that’s what happened when I took to town! To save boring anyone, I took out a few oddball things like grey t-shirts (gotta have some, am I right?), socks and razors, etc/.

What are your favourites?

Awkwardsaurus

 

 

 

 

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Midnight Chitchats

Another late-night blog post – I know, it’s becoming a pattern.

You know when there’s a lot on your mind, and you kind of feel like a fizzy drink being shook up over and over again? That’s how I’m feeling at the moment, and I can’t think where else to vent about everything, since my friends are… well, we’ll get onto that at some point probably.

Where to start… What have I been up to in my extremely uneventful summer break so far? Well, I just took a break from my rather intense Warblers rave. For the uneducated folks reading, the Warblers are an a capella (no instruments) group on Glee. They’re amazing, and I think you should definitely take a little trip over to YouTube to have a peek. My favourites are Hey Soul Sister and Whistle, but there’s so many others!

In the last 5 days or so, I’ve been on a binge of Marvel films since I’d actually never seen the majority of them (I don’t know why). I’ve watched (in release order) all of the films in the same universe as Iron Man (so Thor, Captain America, Hulk, etc). It’s a lot of films to cram into such a short time, but I guess it just shows you how little I actually do with my life. 🙂

My favourite out of them all (aside from the Guardians of the Galaxy movies; I’ve loved them since they came out) would probably be Thor: The Dark World. From there, has sparked my love of Loki. Tom Hiddleston is a beautiful human as it is, but somehow the long, gelled, black hair combined with a long green cape and metal armour accelerates that. Not to mention, his humour and one-liners are hilarious, even though Drax still makes me keel over with laughter the most.

While we’re on the topic, watch this. It’s a very entertaining three minutes and sixteen seconds. 😉

Another thing that has been on my mind for some time is the idea of the future. I’m all for living in the moment and enjoying the time we have right now, but I’ll be starting Year 11 in a few weeks. As any readers in the UK will know, Year 11 is the oldest year of high school. It’s when you take your GCSEs, go to prom, have big school trips and say goodbye to everything you’ve known for the last five years as you head off to college (not university).

Truth is, I’m scared. I’m happy where I am now. Sure, my friends have their bad moods, and some lessons bore me to death, but everyone has that, right? High school has become my comfort zone but soon I’ll have a new timetable, new buildings to navigate, new friends, new group chats and new teachers. I always looked at people this age as so much older than I feel. I still feel like the same 11-year-old girl I was when I started high school, even though I’ve grown (not that much in height) so much since.

It took me so long to make friends, and finally feel like I was fitting in, and the thought of having to do that all over again is quite nerve-wracking. Fast Forward two short years after then and I’ll be going off to university, away from home, away from family, and further away from everything else that matters to me right now.

Another thing I wanted to ramble about is a current situation going on with my friends. As I’ve mentioned before, I have a group chat with Hayley, Penny and Britt. For almost the last two years, it’s been a safe place, where we can rant to each other about nearly anything that crosses our mind and nobody will get judged – at least not too much. At this point, I feel like I’m drifting away from them all, all except Hayley. Recently, it’s become a case of Penny and Britt getting annoyed with me super easily, talking about it on their own private chat, and then confronting me on the group chat.

Recently, that’s been when I messaged them about Teen Wolf. Apparently I was being “f***ing annoying” (censor for the children). What annoys me the most about that is that Penny (she said it) frequently spams us about whatever show it is that she’s watching at the time, whether it’s The Walking Dead, or Rupaul’s Drag Race and nobody has ever told her that she shouldn’t. Today, it started with a sarcastic conversation. As you’ll probably understand, it’s easy for sarcasm to be taken wrongly. At this point though, it was quite clear that I wasn’t being serious, but Penny and Britt managed to turn it against me (surprise, surprise) and then suddenly keep piling on stuff that’s been annoying them lately about me. It was almost as if they’d rehearsed it on a private chat (I know for a fact they’d spoken about it beforehand, but whether they’d planned a response, I’m not sure).

It ended up in a pretty big mess, and I said “Well, I’m sorry. I thought you guy were alright with joking like that”. Britt thanked me for the apology, but Penny replied with “Naa that isn’t an apology. It sounds so half hearted.”  At that point, I got annoyed. I had already apologised for something I didn’t even need to be apologising for, and ended up throwing more sarcasm with “do you want me to write you a card and send some flowers? Hire a singer to go with it?” followed by “Look, I’m sorry and I’ve said that, just let it slide?”. She didn’t say a thing on the chat until 4 hours later, when she said that she had nothing to say because she was watching YouTube.

It’s all a bit messy. I don’t enjoy it, but I also don’t enjoy letting other people get at me for ridiculous things. So this is where I ended up. It’s currently 00:40am, so I should definitely try to get some sleep, and I’ll probably post this in the morning 😀

Editing note: I’ve just took out a few chunks since this post was ridiculously long! If you’ve read all this, thank you – you’re the best ❤

Awkwardsaurus

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BLOLIDAYS #2 – 7 Summer Activities

Hello and welcome to the second Blolidays post of the series! We’re two weeks into the holidays now, and about to start the third week. If you’ve got to the point where you and your friends want to meet up, but have zero clue what to do, then this post should help! I’ll put together some of the ideas my friends and I have for days out (or in) and hopefully you’ll take some inspiration!

Theme Parks

While it does involve spending money, riding rollercoasters is such a fun way to hang out with friends! One of my favourites is Blackpool Pleasure Beach, but Alton Towers comes at a close second! It’s important to consider when you’re going; you wouldn’t want to go when it’s raining (the rides might be closed) but on super hot days, the queues are ridiculously long! Settle for a happy medium!

Country Park Walks

For a free outing, you could take your friends out to the countryside. It could be a woods, or a park near where you live. Dogs are a lot of fun to bring along, and if any of your friends are aspiring photographers, it’s a great opportunity to snap some shots of the natural world! And there’s no money involved – Bonus!

Stationery Shopping

Maybe the new school year is the last thing you want to be thinking about in your time off, and if so, this one probably isn’t for you. For any of my fellow dorky friends who love having new notepads, stacks of sticky notes, freshly sharpened pencils, and rulers that are still in good shape, this one is for you! Take a trip out into town and stock up on everything you need for the 2017/2018 school year!

Movie and Takeaway Day

Who doesn’t love a good movie? I know my friends will definitely be heading over to Regina’s house at some point and using Netflix probably all day… We might even order a sneaky Domino’s takeaway – the chocolate brownies are to die for.

Cards Against Humanity

If you’ve never played Cards Against Humanity, or heard of it – let me enlighten you. In a nutshell, you have white cards and black cards: the black cards have either a question or a sentence with blank spaces, and the white cards have the answers. Each player is given ten white cards, and has to fill in the blanks on a black card, with their own white cards. Some of them get super offensive, dirty, rude and just in general, ridiculously funny. It’s bound to leave you in heaps of giggles, and is a great way to pass a rainy day!

Baking

Any cookery prodigies in your friendship group? You could head over to their house with a few others (the more the merrier) and have a day of baking cakes, pies, muffins, and whatever else your stomach is grumbling for. Feast!

Go to the Beach

It’s summer! When the weather gets hotter and the sun makes an appearance, grab your towels and head down to the seaside! Grab an ice-cream or a cone of fish and chips and press play on your beach vibes playlist, or splash around in the water if you’re feeling adventurous!

And those are some of the things I plan to do this holidays! Let me know what you and your friends will be getting up to! 😀

Awkwardsaurus

 

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BLOLIDAYS #1 – Summer 2017 Playlist

HELLO AND WELCOME TO MY ANNUAL SERIES – BLOLIDAYS.

Every week (although I’ve missed two Saturdays so this is me making up for that) in the 6 week school holidays, I’ll have a summery post, flying into the world wide web, for you all to read! Summer used to be one of my least favourite seasons, because I don’t really enjoy the feeling of sweating my entire face of makeup off, and probably the skin underneath, leaving me sitting in a pool of wet clothes and a messy face. However, since then, I’ve grown to love it! But what’s a great season with great outings without an even greater playlist?

I present to you…

AWKWARDSAURUS SUMMER 2017 PLAYLIST:

1. Down – Fifth Harmony (are you surprised I kicked it off with my favourite ladies on the planet? I’m not!)

2. Crying in the Club – Camila Cabello (also one of my favourite ladies who is killing it at the moment!)

3. Most Girls – Hailee Steinfeld

4. Anything’s Possible – Lea Michele

5. LA Devotee – Panic! At The Disco

6. The Life – Fifth Harmony

7. Unforgettable – French Montana ft. Swae Lee

8. Five Colours In Her Hair – McFly

9. Homeland – Chord Overstreet

10. Legends – Kelsea Ballerini

11. Your Song – Rita Ora

12. Back To Me – Marian Hill & Lauren Jauregui

13. Cake By The Ocean – DNCE (yes, I still love this song)

14. Everybody Talks – Glee Cast

15. Hard Times – Paramore

16. Know No Better – Major Lazer, Travis Scott, Camila Cabello, Quavo (obsessed)

17. California – Jack & Jack

18. Rose-Coloured Boy – Paramore

19. Heavy Love – Lea Michele

20. Despacito – Luis Fonsi ft. Daddy Yankee

21. Controlla – Drake

22. She’s On My Mind – JP Cooper

23. Cool Side Of The Pillow – Kyle Dion

24. Unwind – Healy

25. Starships – Nicki Minaj (could I resist? No, I couldn’t)

And those are some of my favourites this summer! What have you been jamming out to? And what are your favourite beach day songs?

See you next time! 😀

Awkwardsaurus

 

 

 

 

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MONTHLY LOOK-AHEAD – AUGUST 2017

Hello blogosphere! I’m back again, and it’s currently 11:09PM. Why am I writing a post at this time? I’m not sure, especially since I’m surviving off very little sleep after a huge TV marathon last night until 4:30AM…. I should be sleeping, but I’ve ended up here.

So what has August got in store for us? Probably nothing very eventful, since I’m not in school until September, but there’ll definitely be some littler things to look forward to!

Back to Blogging

It’s no secret that my blog has been lacking posts in the last few months, and I’ve been even more useless at reading and commenting on other bloggers’ posts. With school out of the way, I’ll have a lot more free time, and a lot less homework (although teachers had really been slacking in that department anyway this year, thankfully). I’m planning on getting way more posts out than usual!

Blolidays

If you were here last year, and I still haven’t managed to scare you away, first, thanks for staying, but more importantly, you might remember a series of posts I did last summer, called Blolidays. It’s a hybrid word of blog and holidays if you hadn’t already noticed, and although I don’t really go on holiday (thanks mother for the huge family), I write a post once a week themed on the holidays. It might be a summer playlist, my favourite clothes, a haul (that one’s coming for sure!) or even just a rant about the things I love in summer.

Brunch Outings

Like last year, my friends and I have planned to meet up a bunch of times in the holidays, and I’m hoping we actually do! Last year, it got to the last weekend of the holidays and we all got hit with “oh sugar we haven’t been out once” so ended up going out then. Regina wants to go to some little cafes for brunch a few times, and I’m a sucker for all things breakfast-y, especially smoothies!

Everything Everything

For those of you that haven’t already gathered, I’m an absolute hopeless romantic, despite never having been in a relationship or anywhere close to one – ever. It’s heartbreaking, I know, but I survive purely off romance movies: the Notebook being one of my all time favourites (even though it makes me ugly-cry so bad). This month – I think – Everything Everything comes out in the UK Cinemas, and I’m so so excited to watch it.

Teen Wolf Season 6B

As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, I was on a huge TV marathon. Now’s the time where I tell you it was Teen Wolf. I’d planned to rewatch the entire series in time for the new episode that I could watch on Monday (thank you, timezones), but by Sunday morning I was really pushing whether I’d make it in time or not. To make sure I did, I stayed up until 4:30AM. From Wednesday to Monday morning, I’d watched ninety-one episodes of Teen Wolf, which worked out to about two and a half days straight. It’s easily the biggest binge I’ve ever been on in such a short space of time, but I made it, and the new episode WAS SO EXCITING I CAN’T WAIT TO WATCH THE REST OF THE SEASON!!!

Back to School Shopping

As usual, late August comes with restocking on stationery, school uniform, shoes, and the lot. Some people find it really tedious, and a bit depressing, but since me and my friends are all dorks, it’s so exciting, and we set aside a day to go out to a bunch of stationery shops in town. There’s something so refreshing about starting a new year with a whole set of new equipment. Who knows, maybe I’ll even keep my ruler this year? I’ve never managed to keep a ruler – ever; it always seems to go missing, or snap and I end up using those triangle things in maths sets that I still don’t know what they’re used for…. If anyone knows, enlighten me!!

And that’s what’s ahead in the next month! Hopefully, we’ll have some nice weather, and be able to get some outside time! If you’re in the UK, you’ll know our summers usually last all of a three day heatwave and then we’re onto autumn. Let’s see!

See you next time 🙂

Awkwardsaurus

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2 YEAR BLOGIVERSARY

HELLO HELLO HELLO

POP THE CHAMPAGNE AND BLOW UP THE BALLOONS – IT’S MY BLOGIVERSARY.

Maybe without the champagne, though, since I’m 15. . 🙂

2 years ago today, I did a post called “Hello World“, under the name Just Average Teen Me. I know, the name is hella corny, and still to this day makes me want to curl up into a ball and be buried in a hole. Good thing I changed it then, I guess?

Anyways, after making my blog, at the age of 13, I thought it’d be a place where I had posts to write constantly, and ideas flowing heavier than Niagara Falls. If you’ve been here recently (and if any of you are actually left?) you’ll know I’m very very unorganised here… I’m crap at remembering to post, let alone finding the ideas, to put it frankly.

The first year or so, I had a tight schedule of when to post and when not to post, and sometimes that meant being up at 10:30pm (I was 13 okay that was late for a school-night) writing the most rushed and un-related-to-my-life posts I’ve ever seen. Hopefully, you’ll agree I’m past that now, and I try to blog about things that actually hold some shape or form of meaning to what’s going on with me? By the start of 2017, I’d changed my blogging alias to Awkwardsaurus. It fits me a million times better, and makes me want to cry of cringe slightly less.

I mentioned this last year, and I’ll mention it again. After starting my blog, I experienced a few panic attacks: the first in October, and a few others up until now. Without people to talk to, I wouldn’t have recovered as smoothly as I did. I took to WordPress, and told you all how I felt, what caused it, and the fears I had of something like it happening again. I couldn’t talk to anyone else about it, because I felt like they’d just brush it off and say it was nerves (a lot of people really don’t take mental health seriously). You listened, and you helped me. If you hadn’t, I’d have had all that cooped up inside, and it probably would have made my situation even worse.

Blogging has been useful to me, for all the reasons I never thought it would. I thought it’d be easy to gain readers, and have lots of comments as well as likes, but it’s more than that. When I started blogging, I had crazy issues with my self-confidence. I was terrified to even talk to teachers, ordering food or drink from a barista made me shake, and I was constantly convinced that my friends didn’t like me (kind of happened BUT THAT’S BESIDES THE POINT). Obviously, there are a bunch of other factors that played into it, but since then (2015, oh my god that sounds like so long ago) I’ve flourished into a more confident, and happier version of who I was then. Sure, standing in front of the school year still makes me blush and tremble, but I’ve started doing things for me, that I wouldn’t have been able to do before. I’ve made more friends. thanks to not being scared to go and talk to people, I’ve bought things I wouldn’t have before (menstrual cup, anyone?) and I’ve switched to a skirt for school.

If you’re thinking about starting a blog, and you haven’t done already, I can’t stress how much I think you should. Even if just a small part of you thinks it’d be fun, or a way to pass the summer (that’s why I set up this one), just go for it, set up a website here on WordPress, and I’ll be more than happy to help you out!

Anyways, thanks to everyone who’s been stuck in this for the long-haul, and to new readers, too. I know, I’m a pain to keep up with but it means the world to me.

Until next time

Awkwardsaurus

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MONTHLY LOOK-AHEAD: JULY 2017

HELLO HELLO HELLO

I know, we’re three days into July already but EXCUSE MY LATENESS AND LET’S GET ONTO IT BECAUSE JULY IS USUALLY HELLA EVENTFUL.

Travel Day

Every year in July, my school does a trip to Blackpool Pleasure Beach for a day, and we can go around in our own friendship groups, wear our own clothes, and basically do whatever we want. You might remember that there was an extremely attractive photographer when I went last July, and then the following November. But hey, Travel Day is always one of the best days, and it’s actually my last Travel Day since next year I’ll be on study leave!

Sponsored Walk

Another annual event at my school is the sponsored walk: everyone’s families pitch in to sponsor their kids in a walk around the countryside near school. It gets us out of an afternoon of lessons, and it’s a great time to chill out and chat to your friends! Plus, we’ll be in our own clothes!

Summer Holidays

On July 21st (it’s quite late this year) our school will break up for the summer. Year 10 will be over. I’ll probably do a big post on it like I think I did last year? But as much as I’ll miss the people I usually see everyday, it’ll be great to sleep in every morning!

My Blogiversary

July 27th is the day I created my blog. Two whole years ago! At the time, I went by Just Average Teen Me, which I ended up switching for my current name earlier in the year. A Blogiversary is a great way to look back on what’s happened in the span of a year, and this year has definitely had a lot going on!

The Great Gatsby

A few weeks ago, I watched the film starring Leonardo DiCaprio, and it quickly became one of my favourites. Since then, I’d been set on getting my hands on the book, by F. Scott Fitzgerald. Last Saturday, I managed to find it in WH Smith’s (thank you WH Smith’s, you beat Waterstones this time) for £6.99 and I’m currently 3 chapters in. I’m loving it so far and I can’t wait to read the rest!

Everything Everything 

I know, the film came out sometime last month I think, but I haven’t managed to get out and see I yet. As the hopeless romantic that I am, I absolutely love romance movies. They melt my heart, and usually end in a good few tears. This month, I plan to watch it, and I’ll let you know what i think!

And those are the main things in store for this month! See you around 🙂

Awkwardsaurus

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Hold On to Friendship


Have you ever tasted tears saturated with makeup? It’s a slightly bitter, soap-like tinge, that I had never encountered until last week’s Wednesday. How I got there? Well that’s what this post is for.

Before we begin, it’s definitely useful to list all the significant people I’ll need to be mentioning.

The girl half of my friendship group: me, Britt, Penny, Hayley, Rachel, Regina.

The guy half: Tyler, Theo, Ryder, Elliot, Sam. 

Others from another group: Megan (Elliot’s girlfriend) and Alysha. 

Since October, there’s been a slightly romantic awkwardness between Rachel and Elliot, which wound up with him plucking up the courage to ask her out twice, and be rejected twice. Mind you, the only reason Rachel didn’t say yes was because she was scared. 

Flash forward to early February, and Elliot starts dating Megan. Rachel was pretty destroyed, and I made a little post on it, called Lessons of Love. 

Since then, Elliot has been spending some of his time with Megan’s group, and some with our group, so that he can balance the two. This all seems swell if you ask me, but according to my friends, he’s leaving us. Not to mention the rather strong dislike they’ve built up against Megan since.

A few months on, to last Saturday, Ryder was out at a birthday meal for Alysha with Megan, Elliot, and the rest of the people from that friendship group. On the group chat with Penny, Rachel, Regina and myself, there was a lot of speculation over whether Ryder was dating (or about to be dating) Alysha. Jumping too quickly to conclusions, Rachel took to the full group chat (everyone in our group) with a screenshot of a Wikipedia page for “Judas the Betrayer”. 

The next few school days were packed with a good bit of persistent teasing, and by Tuesday, Ryder had decided to stay with Elliot, Megan, Alysha and their group at break times. Since Theo and Tyler were helping out around school, that left the girls and Sam. Sam clearly felt a little awkward about it, and wound up heading towards the other guys by Wednesday. 

In RE (religious education), Penny, Britt, Rachel and Regina had decided to start afresh, and wipe free the guys because they were abandoning us. They were completely done with the friendship, and had told us all to leave the group chat. They even went to the extent of reintroducing themselves as the new boy-free girls that they were. 

Since the guys are actually some of my longest friends (Elliot was the first person i spoke to in high school, and one of my only friends throughout Year 7), the whole situation was hurting my heart quite a lot, so I engrossed myself in the work we were doing, and kept my opinions to myself.

The bus drive home was havoc, as always on a school bus, but as soon as I’d made it home and closed the door to my bedroom, everything I’d felt all day started pouring out – literally, from my eyes. They welled up slightly at first, and then the tears just didn’t stop. Losing some of my best friends because they think I’m against them (especially when I’m completely the opposite) was heartbreaking to think about, and I was a literal mess. 

It was then that I tasted the tears. Bitter and soapy. I looked in the mirror, and saw the nude coloured drops, meandering down, around my nose and either dropping off my chin or landing on my lips. I hadn’t washed off my makeup yet, and my under eye concealer was definitely not waterproof.

After ignoring hundreds of messages from the girls, begging me to leave the chat, I took to Instagram and created a new group. Me, Ryder, Sam and Elliot. I told them everything, about how I don’t hate them, how I really didn’t want to lose any friends and that I thought the girls were all being unreasonable, as well as hypocritical. 

Sam instantly named the group “sane people chat” and Elliot was full of thanks that I hadn’t “jumped on the bandwagon too”. They all advised me not to mention the chat to the girls, and made sure I knew that if they “give you any shit” for talking to the guys (if they found out, that is), they’d be there.

Since then, we’ve been messaging every day to make up for barely talking in person, and I’ve really proven to myself that I’m in control of things. 

You don’t have to do what your friends say, just because there’s more of them. If you want to be friends with certain people, nobody has any right to stop you. 

I managed to keep every one of my friends, when I could easily have lost about 5. 
Losing friends over silly fallouts isn’t worth it, and it’s important to hold onto the people you care about, as well as the memories you’ve made with them.

Awkwardsaurus

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An Optimist Amongst Pessimists

Hey… I’m writing this super late, since it’s actually past midnight here in the UK.
Within my friendship group, there’s been all sorts of dramas in the last week, and I’ll definitely get another post up soon to explain it all and whatnot, but for now, it’s probably useful to know that there’s been a slight fall out between two halves of our group. 

SO, naturally, the majority of our group are pretty bummed about it. As I’ll explain in the next post, I’m not so much affected since I managed to KEEP MY HEAD OUT OF THE DRAMA (apologies, ahem.) but the rest of the girls in our group seem to have took a big hit from it. 

Bare in mind, this all began last Saturday, and escalated rapidly on Wednesday. Friday (although now it’s Saturday) rolled around and my friends are being painfully pessimistic.

Before I get into the details, I’ll mention that I’m an optimist. I’m a positive thinker, I firmly believe that everything happens with purpose, that nothing is entirely bad and that everything will turn out good in the end. 

My friends however, are quite the opposite. They seem to let one negative thing outrule the entire year of good memories we’ve had in Year 10, saying that “Life is so shit” and “I thought this year would be better”, to which I replied saying that life isn’t bad, and that they were just ignoring all the good that had happened this year.

Just because I don’t outwardly show sadness or pain in person or through dramatic paragraphs, doesn’t mean I don’t ever feel it, so what Britt replied tugged my nerves a little. She’d said that my life is all fine and happy, seemingly implying that everything to happen for me is all sunshine and rainbows. Any frequent reader of this blog will fully understand that that’s not the case. The difference is, as an overall, I try to focus on the things that make me happy. You’ll know that this year I’ve dealt with a lot, including the separation of our friendship group recently. 

“Nothing bad has happened to you this year”. To assume that someone has it perfectly, is a hundred percent unreasonable, if you ask me. So by this point, I was getting a little annoyed and ended up saying “JUST FOCUS ON THE GOOD JESUS WHERE IS YOUR OPTIMISM?”. She replied with “What good?”. 

I understand that people might have stuff going on that we don’t know about, and that it’s perfectly reasonable to feel down from time to time (as we all do), but to blatantly ignore all the times you’ve laughed until you couldn’t breathe, smiled so hard your jaw hurt and physically not been able to hold back from making a little inside joke or smirk is just unfair. Unfair on all the people that would then feel as if they aren’t good enough for you. If nothing is good, then surely that means the friendships aren’t good either?

Being a positive person, surrounded by so much negativity is getting to me a little, and I’m feeling slightly squashed so I needed to have a little rant on here. 

Thank you for listening, and if anyone is hurt by anything I’ve said, I’m sorry.

Awkwardsaurus