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Can you believe it’s September already!? It hardly seems that long ago since New Year, and it’s been 8 months! Anyway, as always, with a new month, comes a new Monthly Look-Ahead! With a new academic year starting, a lot of these will be school-based, but I might squeeze a few other things in, too!

Year 11

For those of you that don’t already know, high schools in the UK are separated into year groups numbered 7-11. Year 7s are 11 turning 12 when they start, and year 11s are 15 turning 16. So, 4 years after starting high school, my year group are finally the oldest! I don’t feel nearly as old as the Year 11s looked when I was in Year 7, it’s gone so fast!

Senior Badges

Something that comes with starting Year 11 is senior badges. Everyone in the year group gets a little badge to pin to their blazer, and it’s kind of a way for the younger years to know that we’re the oldest, and they can come to us for questions about school and whatnot, but I like to see it as a “Well done, you’ve made it this far – only a bit more to go” kind of thing.

New Timetable

While I won’t be getting a new set of teachers (only in subjects where last year’s teachers have left), I still get a new layout for my lessons. Last year, the timetable was actually pretty good, so I’m hoping this year is as well!

College Applications

No, not university. You might call it sixth form, but it’s basically the two years before university, where you take your A-Levels. It’s a big step up from high school, and I’m definitely nervous, but in the last few days I’ve been more excited than usual!

Romance Movies

I have a few romance movies that I want to watch sometime soon. One was recommended by a friend, called ‘Before I Go’ I think, and the other is Safe Haven. I’ve seen the trailer for Safe Haven and it looks great! Let me know some of your favourites and I’ll add them to the list!


Leaves are already starting to change colour a tiny bit, and I’m so excited for Autumn. It’s easily one of my favourite seasons, where it’s darker in the evenings, colder, prettier colours – and I get to wear my warmer clothes. Who am I kidding, I’ve been wearing hoodies all summer anyway. This year, the UK hasn’t had the best Summer, if you ask me!

That’s everything I can think of for this month! For those of you wondering, I’ll be back at school on Monday, so only 3 days to go! 😦


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Haunted by Old Expectations

Hey there…

I’ve had a pretty intense week, with a lot of drama within my friendship group, so I’m a little emotionally drained at the moment. That does mean that things are getting to me more easily, and I’m getting emotional over little things. One of those things happens to be my A-Levels.

I know, I’m in Year 10, not college, but this time next year I’ll need to know what I want to take for my A-Levels. That’s five subjects that I have to chose. At this point, I only know I want to do geography. 

It’s no secret in my actual life that the numbers I get on exams happen to be higher than average. However I haven’t really mentioned it on my blog before because it’s a stereotype I get labelled with a lot (the smart girl really isn’t the best way to be known) and I wanted to keep that separate from here. But yeah. I’m not Einstein or anything, and to be quite honest, I don’t think I’m as intelligent as people assume I am.

Anyways, for the last few years I was set on studying medicine and becoming a doctor. My mum had encouraged me for years to go to Oxford or Cambridge University, the top unis in the UK for those of you that don’t know, and I went along with it.

But earlier this year, I did a post about how I felt lost, and didn’t want to do any of that anymore. I still have zero clue what I want to be when I’m older, but the subject I enjoy the most in school is Geography. 

With new UK exam grades (1-9, 9 being the highest) it’s more difficult to get top grades, which will really separate the people who get full marks from the ones that previously scraped an A*. Some may say unfortunately, but I definitely will not be coming out on results day with a string of 9s. Probably a mixture of 8s and 7s, which frankly isn’t high enough for Oxford or Cambridge. So I decided to knock some sense into my head and realise that it was slightly unpractical to think about.

My parents aren’t all too happy. They seem to think that all of my A-Level choices will be academic, with the majority being maths and sciences. If you ask me, that sounds like hell. I’d much rather do philosophy and geography with a few others. 

I quote this, by the way. My parents said “you can’t do dumb subjects.” and that they don’t want me to “ruin my chances” 

Personally, I think that it’s more important for me to be doing subjects that I know I can do well, and that I’ll enjoy whilst doing well, but they don’t seem to care much about the enjoyment.

I know, I have a year and a bit to go, but I really don’t like the idea that my parents might be deciding my own future for me, and it’s making me feel pretty trapped.

Any thoughts?

See y’all around ❤


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It’s Okay to be Lost


I’m Just Average Teen Me. When I was in Year 4 (about 9 for those of you outside of the UK), I made a decision that shaped my life up until now. The thought of that decision being a wrong choice was confusing at first, but now that I think about it, it’s totally reasonable.

Since I was younger, I’ve been organised (heck, I know I’m not that great at organising my blog) and felt much more comfortable when I knew where I wanted to get to – when I had direction. That’s why I felt like I had to decide on where my education was getting me. So, I decided I’d be a doctor when I grew up.

Flash forward six years, and I’m surrounded by the walls that I’ve built around myself. Every time I said I would be a doctor, it became more real, until I just knew that that’s where I wanted to be. It even influenced my choices in GCSEs, losing an option block for a whole extra set of Science lessons (Triple Science, as we cal it.)

I’ve been thinking. Thinking that when you’re nine, the only jobs that exist to your little brain are: teacher, doctor, nurse, shop workers, the jobs that your parents have and maybe even cowboy. But the truth is, there’s more jobs than you can count! Some of our generation will have jobs in companies that don’t even exist at the moment. As technology evolves, so do the jobs that produce that technology!

The numbers are endless!

Why I’ve been thinking so much, you might ask? Well, my biology teacher was talking about how she used to be a microbiologist. She took endangered plants into a lab, reproduced them, helped them to grow, and took them back into the wild so that they weren’t as endangered. Now, I don’t plan on becoming a microbiologist, but the realisation that there are jobs that exist that I don’t know about sent me spiraling into where I’ve ended up now.

I don’t think I want to be a doctor anymore: I’m squeamish (and haven’t enjoyed a single dissection), I don’t like to put myself at risk of falling sick, I’m terrified of sick (vomit, puke – whatever you want to call it) and the hours are so demanding, I don’t think I could keep my life balanced.

Being a doctor is not for me.

The thought scared me a little, at first – especially since I’ve started a first aid volunteering thing – but I’m almost 15. I don’t need to know where I want to be in 10 years time. It’s okay to not know.

It’s okay to be lost.

I know that there’ll be so many other people out there who have no clue what they want to be, or have told themselves a lie, that they want to be something, but in reality they’re just settling for what their younger self told them. Think, if that’s the case. You have years to go. We have years to go. We don’t have to have our lives planned out already. I mean, the only thing I already planned is marrying someone as attractive as Cody Christian because DAMN! ❤

Get out there, and enjoy the life you have!

We’re all lost. The best chance we got is to wander this life with the people who matter.

-Kristen Ashley

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me