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An Optimist Amongst Pessimists

Hey… I’m writing this super late, since it’s actually past midnight here in the UK.
Within my friendship group, there’s been all sorts of dramas in the last week, and I’ll definitely get another post up soon to explain it all and whatnot, but for now, it’s probably useful to know that there’s been a slight fall out between two halves of our group. 

SO, naturally, the majority of our group are pretty bummed about it. As I’ll explain in the next post, I’m not so much affected since I managed to KEEP MY HEAD OUT OF THE DRAMA (apologies, ahem.) but the rest of the girls in our group seem to have took a big hit from it. 

Bare in mind, this all began last Saturday, and escalated rapidly on Wednesday. Friday (although now it’s Saturday) rolled around and my friends are being painfully pessimistic.

Before I get into the details, I’ll mention that I’m an optimist. I’m a positive thinker, I firmly believe that everything happens with purpose, that nothing is entirely bad and that everything will turn out good in the end. 

My friends however, are quite the opposite. They seem to let one negative thing outrule the entire year of good memories we’ve had in Year 10, saying that “Life is so shit” and “I thought this year would be better”, to which I replied saying that life isn’t bad, and that they were just ignoring all the good that had happened this year.

Just because I don’t outwardly show sadness or pain in person or through dramatic paragraphs, doesn’t mean I don’t ever feel it, so what Britt replied tugged my nerves a little. She’d said that my life is all fine and happy, seemingly implying that everything to happen for me is all sunshine and rainbows. Any frequent reader of this blog will fully understand that that’s not the case. The difference is, as an overall, I try to focus on the things that make me happy. You’ll know that this year I’ve dealt with a lot, including the separation of our friendship group recently. 

“Nothing bad has happened to you this year”. To assume that someone has it perfectly, is a hundred percent unreasonable, if you ask me. So by this point, I was getting a little annoyed and ended up saying “JUST FOCUS ON THE GOOD JESUS WHERE IS YOUR OPTIMISM?”. She replied with “What good?”. 

I understand that people might have stuff going on that we don’t know about, and that it’s perfectly reasonable to feel down from time to time (as we all do), but to blatantly ignore all the times you’ve laughed until you couldn’t breathe, smiled so hard your jaw hurt and physically not been able to hold back from making a little inside joke or smirk is just unfair. Unfair on all the people that would then feel as if they aren’t good enough for you. If nothing is good, then surely that means the friendships aren’t good either?

Being a positive person, surrounded by so much negativity is getting to me a little, and I’m feeling slightly squashed so I needed to have a little rant on here. 

Thank you for listening, and if anyone is hurt by anything I’ve said, I’m sorry.

Awkwardsaurus

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Trying to Trust

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. I wanted to talk about something that I’ve dealt with for a long time, and how I’m trying to step out of my comfort zone little by little.

For so long, I’ve found it difficult to trust people, and if you asked me how many people I trust, I would have probably said nobody. As you can imagine, that meant that I’ve had a lot of secrets that only I know.

I’m not completely sure why I don’t trust people, but it might be because of a few events that have happened in the past. As I was going into high school, there was a lot going on. Shortly after I created this blog, I actually told the blogosphere about it. Since I was about three, I’d had one best friend. But as we got to high school, hormones hit and she changed so much. She went behind my back on several occasions, and let’s just say it probably hasn’t helped with not trusting people…

Then, as you might remember, this time last year, a good friend of mine (Regina) said some pretty mean things on a group chat that I wasn’t included in. That one ended up in a panic attack, which definitely was not fun.

I guess you could say that I’m scared to trust people because I don’t want the rest of the world finding out… There are some things, though, that I have trusted my friends with – but they also think the same thing (there’s a rather good-looking dude in the year above us and we’re all in on it).

But when it’s something that only I know about, or only I think, it becomes so much more scary. A few days ago, I kind of let something slip on the group chat… Britt is bi, and was talking about how a lot of the girls in our year look like models. Regretfully, I replied with:

“There are very few minorly attractive guys in our year :D”

Before you ask, no I had never told them of anyone in our year that I find attractive, so Britt kind of freaked out.

“WHAT DID YOU MEAN U THINK SOMEONE’S ATTRACTIVE IN OUR YEAR OMG JATM SPIT IT OUT RIGHT NOW”

Penny was just confused as hell: “Jatm…”

At that point I was very much cringing and regretting saying that at all. So I replied with

“IDK WHAT TO SAY TO THIS” After them guessing pointlessly at people who matched my ‘type’ in any way, I realised I could stop it.

“I DON’T KNOW THEIR NAMES OKAY” So at this point, I was trying to throw them off; I do know his name.

So, two days later and they still had no clue. The topic of ‘that guy that Jatm likes’ cropped up. It gradually came to the point where I’d told them his hair colour, that he’s quite tall, in the other side of the year and that he looks a little like a celebrity we know (I did specify the celebrity, but I’ll leave that out for the blog.).

Then it became “do you know his name?”. I did, and I told them this time – not his name, but that I knew it. 5 minutes later, I’d told them the first letter of his last name and a letter in his first, forcing them to promise that if they figured it out, nobody else could know.

Penny being the quick-to-find-things-out person that she is, replied within two minutes with a name. His name. Here’s where the trusting comes into play – I could have said no, and let her keep guessing at wrong answers, or I could have told her she was right. I chose to tell her.

That’s one of the first times I’ve told someone something that only I know, so as you can imagine, I was pretty terrified. But at this point, 12 hours later, I’m glad I did. If you’re anything like me, just try to maybe trust a person or two? I know it’s one of the hardest things to do, but it’ll be worth it.. ❤

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me

P.S. If you’ve been wondering this whole time if I have a crush on this dude, I don’t think I do… He’s just very nice-looking… And according to Penny, not that nice of a guy… 😀

 

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A Little Update On My Life

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. It’s been a while since I actually told you guys what in the world is going on with my life, so I thought it would be a nice change to do just that today. As far as planning for this post, or thinking about what I’m going to write, I’ve done zero. Which should make this kind of weird, but hopefully more laid back and chilled out than normal.

Mainly, it’s just been school. As for school though, it’s been fairly straightforward, not too many exams or tests of such. Although now that I mention it, there’s an exam week coming up fairly soon which should be fun… especially with a form teacher that fails to keep us updated on anything.

Friends-wise, I’ve been doing well. For some of you who’ve been here for quite a good while, you’ll know I had a few problems with a certain someone named Regina (by my codenames) and stuff got kinda cray cray. Basically, Regina has been awesome lately, and I really have tried to forget everything that’s happened in the past and move on. Which as difficult as I thought it would be last October, is really easy. She’s been super awesome since about December and yeah everything is gooood! 🙂

As for another aspect of friendship, I’ve been hanging out with my ‘squad’ a lot less since 2016 started. I have mentioned before, but someone I’ve been hanging out with a lot is Brittnay. I eat with her every lunch time, along with her friend – let’s call her Tessa. Hanging out with these guys is a lot more relaxed, because of way less drama! Don’t get me wrong, I still spend time with my squad, and our friendship groups cross over a lot of the time (some days, Penny eats with us and we’re all friends in general). Obviously Bob is still my best friend though… I sound like a 7 year old 😀

Just in case you were interested, I am actually keeping up with my new years resolution of drinking more water, which is quite the achievement! It’s gotten to the point where I don’t dislike water anymore! Tell that to me this time last year and I’d probably mimic vomiting!

A good fraction of my life has been taken up by crushing since that post I did on the topic. I’m not going to go into it, because I’ll sound cheesy and cringey and like a creepy little fangirl but yeah. One dude is from school, the other is a celebrity. The celebrity however, I am rather optimistic about and am quite set on marrying him 😀 ❤

How’s your life going? I’d love to know!

Thank you SO much for reading! Make sure to like and follow if you like my blog and leave any thoughts or suggestions in the comments!

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me

P.S. One of my headphones literally just fell from my ear at random… I’m not even moving. :/

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How Are You? #2

Hi,

I’m Just Average Teen Me. Before I get onto today’s post, I’m just going to let you know of a few things.

  1. I finally changed my blog address to justaverageteenme instead of justme2929 😀 YAY *cheers*
  2. Aaaaaand I made a page called Other Places to Find Me, where you can find me on other social media sites etc. I’m literally not on anything at all so yeah. Not even with my personal accounts. Although, my vent account isn’t particularly personal or blogging.

And I think that’s it?

Onto today’s post. If you were a follower back in September, then you’ll know that I did a post called “How are You? – Really” where I basically asked how you all were, said how I was and stuff like that. It got a really good response from you all, and we could kind of just rant to each other in the comments. Everyone. So, the same goes for this post, I urge you to comment, and comment on other people’s comments too! Give whatever advice or replies you can!

So. How am I?

Well, for starters, I am starving right now. Not literally… But I am so hungry and I can’t wait for lunch 😛 I’m kind of relieved, that a person who my mum and sisters are convinced ‘likes’ me wasn’t just in church so that’s a good thing. If you would like a post dedicated to this guy, then leave a comment saying so, and maybe your wish shall be granted!

My life is good as of right now. I’m proud of myself for completing 3 weeks worth of history homework in 2 hours yesterday, but I’m kind of nervous for a Shakespeare exam (just an in class one) tomorrow. Shakespeare confuses my head, even more than normal English lessons do anyway!

I’m in quite the nostalgic/reflective mood this morning too. Mainly because I saw a bunch of people that used to be really tiny, and now they’re all growing up and it’s making me feel reeeaaaallly weird, we’re all growing up – time is ticking – this is not Neverland. Although I would not mind one bit if it was Neverland ❤

When I woke up this morning, I was completely ecstatic, because I FINALLY had a lucid dream! As a lot of you probably know, I have been trying to have a lucid dream for so long and now finally, 2 months later, I realised I was dreaming! All I did was make kitchen roll disappear, but I plan on doing so much more if I have another! It was SO vivid! Everything was as it is in real life: my coat was at the side of my bed, I still had my Christmas bedding (haha yeah I really need to get rid of that) and my doorstop was exactly the same.

Enough on me though, how are you? Let me know in the comments, and reply to anyone that you might have some good advice for! I love to see the blogsphere interacting! ❤

I know this post isn’t very long, but I’m hoping the comments will make up for it!

Thank you SO much for reading! Make sure to like and follow if you like my blog and leave any thoughts or suggestions in the comments!

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me