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I’m Awkwardsaurus. We’re four days into 2017, or the year that looks like a robot death machine, as Rachel describes it, and it hasn’t quite sunk in that when I go back to school, I’ll have to write 2017, instead of 2016.

Now that I guess you could say the year is kicking off into full swing, I thought I’d just do a little post looking forward to everything that will and might happen in the next year.

First off, I’m turning 15 this year. If you didn’t already know my age, then well, I’m 14, in Year 10, which I think would be the equivalent to freshman year at an American high school. I was just discussing with Bob actually, about how it’s so crazy that we start Year 11 in September (the oldest year of UK high schools) and how we still feel like we should be in Year 5. 15 just sounds old if you ask me, and I know to some of you it’ll sound young, especially if you’re older, which I know some of you are.

Just before my birthday, though, I’ll have mock exams. If you’re outside of the UK, you might not know what they are, or do other countries call them mocks too? Anyway, they’re basically practice GCSEs (big exams at the end of high school) but they’re used for grades for that year as well as a backup in case you miss the actual exams. So, obviously that’ll mean a lot of revision, even over my birthday. Exams last a week, starting on Ashley’s birthday. 😦

She’s four days younger than me, by the way! 😀

Flash a little further forward to April, and I’m going to see Shawn Mendes live for the Illuminate Tour! Ashley’s parents bought tickets for her birthday, so we’re both super excited about that! Although I’m pretty sure it’ll involve an emotional breakdown on Ashley’s behalf, since she’s seeing her future husband for the first time 😀

As the school year comes to a close, we’ll have our last travel day (in year 11, we’ll be on study leave, so we don’t go), which will be to Pleasure Beach in Blackpool, as it is every year. I’m super excited, and also clinging on to hope that the photographer from last July and November will still be there! ❤

After then, I’ll be preparing for a school trip to Italy. I’m kind of terrified, for so many reasons:

  1. I’m not going with any of my closest friends, since none of them signed up to go (it’ll make more sense if you read —> this post <—)
  2. I haven’t been abroad since I was four years old…
  3. So I haven’t been on a plane since I was four either…
  4. And on top of that, I have a fear of heights and I’m uncomfortable in small spaces
  5. FINALLY, this whole time I’ll have to stay completely chill because Flynn will be there. 😮

So, I guess you get the gist. 😀

But I am super excited, since I’ve been looking forward to it for so long, and it’ll be a chance to go out and adventure, while seeing some amazing landscapes and cultures! We climb Mt Vesuvius (the one that destroyed Pompeii) and go on a boat trip to the Island of Capri. It sounds so amazing, and I’m hoping the excitement dulls the nerves a little! Although if you have any similar experiences, let me know! 😀

Italy is in October, while we’re off for school holidays, so by that point I’ll be Year 11. There’ll probably be another mock week in December, which I think is the last one before real exams? I’m not sure.

Obviously there’ll be a bunch of other things happening throughout the year, big and small, that I never could have guessed would be happening. After all, there’s no way I could’ve predicted some of the crazy stuff that happened last year!

So, here’s to 2017, hopefully a year where we fix the situations we’ve got the world into, and start working for a better tomorrow, while enjoying the time we have! ❤

Clink clink, have a great year 😉



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Being Let Down Sucks


I’m Just Average Teen Me. I could say that I’ve gotten myself into a bit of a dilemma, but that would be a lie, since none of this is my fault. If you haven’t already guessed, today’s post won’t be as happy as mine normally are, but I’m really hoping you can give some advice in the comments!

Truthfully, I’m really not sure how to feel or what I’m feeling right now. I’d say it’s a mix of anger, disappointment and regret. I know, you want to know why I’m feeling this way, and I promise, I’ll get onto it – I just need to figure out how to word it all.

If you read Saturday’s post, you might remember that Britt was trying to persuade her parents to let her go on a school trip to Italy. Well, for almost a year now, we’ve been fantasising about how we’d take home the tiny shower gels, and stay up for hours talking about things that people drunk on tiredness talk about. Running through the list of things that we’d need to take, and the places we’d want to visit, the things we’d want to eat.

With one message, that whole dream was shattered.

“he said no”

For months the question had been: “Will Jatm be able to go?”, and now that it’s finally come around, and I’ve already given in the reply slip, all of a sudden, it’s Britt causing the troubles.

I know it isn’t exactly her fault, but she at least could have said earlier on that she might not have been able to go, right? Or spoken to her parents before the letters got handed out, like I did? Who knows, maybe she could have asked them with a little more enthusiasm and optimism? She was super pessimistic, and negative about the whole thing, waiting days to even ask them, and eventually I was doubting whether or not she even wanted to go.

My problem now, is that I might be going to Italy – without her. I have two options, really.

  1. Withdraw myself from the trip, which will probably mean that I have to sit through a lecture from the geography teacher and miss out on the stuff that wil help us understand the lessons
  2. Go through with it, without her, and make some friends that are actually going

However, if you’ve got the main part of my personality from my blog, you can probably tell that I’m terrible at making friends. I’m way too judgemental (I get it from my mother), I’m a pretty bad conversationalist, and just an all-round awkward person. God knows what stereotypes I’ve been stamped with in school either… It probably doesn’t help that the majority of people will have already made their own friends in the last four years anyway… Is it even worth spending about £500 (that we could really do with not spending, if I’m honest) on a trip where I won’t even be with my best friends?

So, I’ll have to decide pretty soon on what I plan on doing, but I was wondering if any of you have any ideas? Have you ever had to deal with something like this before?

BYE! 😀

Just Average Teen Me